Musings on turning 30

First day of 1st grade, being sassy. Turning 30 has been in the back of my mind since I turned 21. At first it was a milestone I dreaded, mostly because that’s what I thought people in their 20s were supposed to do. But as the years went on, I quickly realized that I was not dreading it at all. I was nervous, but I was also excited and curious. So when I was 24 I started planning my 30th birthday. No joke. I wanted a big house, with a pool, on the beach, filled with my friends in it. My dream will become reality in two weeks when friends, family and I will be staying in two big houses, with pools, near the beach in Cabo.

I’m super excited about my party, but I’m more excited about what lies beyond the confetti and tequila of Cabo. I am leaving my 20s embracing and celebrating things about myself and my life that I spent a lot of time condemning myself for in the past. I found a love that is healthy, encouraging, and supportive and I love it. I am not truly passionate about anything, but there are a lot of things that I enjoy doing that bring meaning to my life. I absolutely can not live without sweets. I am a risk taker. I am a planner. I like to be in control. Most of my bad moods can be lifted by listening to music. My body is exactly what I need it to be. I want to be a mom someday and I want to stay at home with my kids. I succeed when I set multiple small goals for myself.

Rob and I.

As I pondered leaving one decade and entering a new one, a lot of ideas for guiding my 30s came to my mind. I whittled down the mass jumble of ideas into three concrete goals:

  • I will strive to be more positive, calm, patient, and less quick to anger. I have already started this change in attitude by being mindful of different little things each week that make me smile. I want to train my mind and eyes to see the positive in everything.
  • I will continue to work towards accepting myself--my body, my “slash” career path (nanny/interior designer/party planner/blogger/website owner/professional driver/whatever is next), and the fact that I don’t have one clear passion.
  • I will be present in my day to day life. I have a tendency to think about the future and unnecessarily stress myself out over things I have no control over. It is a waste of energy and it takes away from cherishing each moment I have in the present.

I will miss my 20s, but I am thoroughly excited to see what adventures this next decade has in store for me.

Having a bit of fun for my 24th birthday!